I know Your here right now,
I can’t see You,
I can’t feel You,
But I know.
Cat and mouse worked for a while,
A sideways glance,
A joining experience,
But I am done with sticks and carrots.
Whatever the trauma was that caused this separation,
My penance is done.
Hell and Heaven have been played out,
No more reflections of reflections,
projected onto puppets,
Where attachment comes into play
And You hide again.
No more experiences,
Where you come and dance with me,
Only to get scared off,
And find the darkest nook to hide in.
I will not destroy worlds to find You anymore,
Because the harder I look, the better You hide.
I will not accept a token blessing,
That just extends the maze.
I don’t know what happened,
But no longer can I pretend.
You are with me in this moment, no matter how hidden,
You are inside me right now, no matter how dark it seems.
And I Love You, and long for You to come back
To where you rightly belong.
In this paradise, with me.